The Good Fight

So walking around with some friends the other night I came across this guy's art gallery. Pretty bad ass stuff. Not the MOST original style I have ever seen, but then again, what artist doesn't draw influence and inspiration from those who've come before them? I for one have blatantly ripped off styles, poses, colors, etc. all in the name of "inspiration." 

Regardless, I have to say my reaction to seeing that place kind of ignited a bomb inside me with rage and envy. I didn't express it, I just kept walking. But my reaction was still not a good one, because as well know, that leads to the dark side. But seriously - I wasn't pissed at this guy - just myself. I never went to art school, nor do I ever hang out with artists. I went the other route and live the empty, corporate life, with art on the side. (I mean that professionally speaking of course, the remaining aspect of my life are quite fulfilling).

It just pisses me off that I would never have the balls to drop it all and start my own place like that. As it is, I'm not even sure how good my art. I get so many mixed reviews with everything from "your style is childish shit" to "cool". Never a 'beautiful', nor an 'inspirational' - not that i need that kind of validation from other people, but it would sure as shit make me feel better if i were to really put the green down for an investment like starting my own gallery. 

I guess that's where the conflict arises - I want to do so many things, all at once, yet I don't have the patience to even start one of them. I mean, right now I've got a pipeline consisting of drawing a comic book, designing a messenger bag, a children's book, t-shirts, and an upcoming art show. Gotta say, I have no idea how to finish just one of these considering I work in one of the most time-demanding industries around. 

For example, I just finished this piece:

For me, I would want to turn this piece into a million different things, from a photo print to a bus stop banner. But why? I mean, uploading my stuff online is pretty much the extent of my exposure these days.

So i guess I just have to get my shit together - like any artist - and make the sacrifice. 

Some day. But in the mean time, we fight.